
Caregiving with Cancer
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As the world was shut down for COVID and nothing was normal, I discovered I had stage 3 breast cancer. My husband was out to sea on COVID quarantine, after a seven-month deployment. I was home with three kids, trying to navigate the new reality before us. So when I discovered a painful spot in my breast around Halloween life was already upside down. I was evaluated by my doctor after Thanksgiving and officially was diagnosed with cancer after Christmas. I wasn’t trying to delay my care, but because of COVID restrictions, homeschooling our kiddos who have exceptional needs, and with daddy at sea, things moved as fast as they could. I had to juggle caregiving with cancer.
Written by Meg Graves
Navigating an aggressive disease is not easy. A cancer diagnosis kicks things into high gear for the cancer patient. Everyone suddenly wants to assess and develop a treatment plan. Everything quickly changes as you are scanned, biopsied, and meet your new care team members. It’s the one time in my life when I saw a medical team across many departments and specialties actually communicate and look at me holistically as a human being.
Being a special needs family, we are used to doctors and specialists. But rarely do they all communicate with each other without a major effort on our parts as parental caregivers. My medical team was and continues to be a truly caring team who cares for my mental health as well as my physical health.
At home, things were more turbulent. My cancer diagnosis left my family to face waves of new information, feeling knocked down with every new update. It was a shock for all of us as our community stepped up. They had to step into my shoes as I went from doctor to doctor. Our children, who are enrolled in the Exceptional Family Program (EFMP) for their neurodivergence, were already out of sorts after COVID. They truly had no idea what was facing our family. And to be honest, I had no clue what was heading our way.
If you have had the terrible experience of undergoing chemotherapy, you know that there are highs and lows related to the side effects. During my third round of “the red devil” (one of the harshest chemotherapy out there, Adriamycin) I woke up unable to move, unable to function, unable to stay awake. I was down for the count. I was delirious, nauseous and exhausted. Unfortunately, our three EFMP children did not get the memo.
The Realities of Caregiving with Cancer
Because COVID and virtual learning were terrible for our children in special education, I had chosen to homeschool. This was a parent-directed and developed home school program, so our three children were at home and not in a school building, and not tied to a virtual classroom. Our new-to-us respite care provider, who I desperately needed to provide me the physical and mental breaks I needed, was not expected at our house until 9 am. But by 8:30 am our children were AWAKE, with the energy level of a pack of cheetahs. Mommy being out of commission was new for all of us. As a military spouse, I try to make it work, juggling all the things. But this was truly unexpected, as my first two rounds of chemo did not leave me unable to function.
I woke to the noise of children outside, and it took me a little to realize the ruckus was in our small military housing townhouse backyard, and it was MY children and not the surrounding neighbors. Crawling out of bed, I made it to the window. With some effort, I was able to open the window up enough to try and convince them to come back inside despite my nauseousness. Unfortunately because of their special needs, it’s not easy to convince them of anything or change their minds once they’ve committed to their decision. They were soaked and in their swimsuits, hosing the entire tiny backyard with water. Eventually, they took my suggestion of coming inside. But what I didn’t realize was that they ran inside and continued right back out to the front yard, fully wet, leaving a trail of water in their wake.
I had crawled back into my bed and was unaware they had left the house again. At ages eight, six and four, they were still learning about safety and self-control. I remember being woken up by our new friend and neighbor Samantha standing beside my bed, letting me know that she had wrangled my herd into her house where her three young children were befuddled why our three older children were soaked and in their house at breakfast time. I’m forever thankful for her quick thinking and ability to take on six children under eight years old, all before her first cup of coffee. And willing to take the risk of COVID exposure during a time when 6 feet was a necessity.
It’s hard to be a caregiver when you need caregiving yourself. It’s hard when you are the preferred parent for certain activities and you just can’t do it. It’s hard when you typically manage the doctors, the schedules, the medicines, and the details of life. It’s the worst form of mommy guilt when your special needs children don’t fully understand why their world is upside down. Why can’t mommy tuck them in? Why can’t mommy drive them to their therapies? Why can’t mommy help them communicate when they aren’t being understood by those now caring for them? Where is your hair mommy?
It truly takes a special village when your special needs family needs real hands-on help. When you are the caregiver, it’s hard admitting you also need help. It’s hard handing over the reins to your new military friends or even family, when you are unable to care for your complex children on your own. It’s even harder on your children who don’t understand the words cancer or chemotherapy. But not caring for myself is not an option so we just take things one day and one appointment at a time, allowing myself to ask for help along the way.
We all have our own version of hard.
You are not alone.
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About the Author

As a proud Navy military wife of 12 years, Meg is no stranger to the hardships of being married in the military. Their three children, two of which are EFM, and her own EFM status as a Breast Cancer survivor, have given her first-hand experience in advocating for their unique needs. Breast cancer has taught her that we all have our own version of hard.
She has been front and center, listening and helping create change for other families at the local school level, for all exceptional children, through her roles as a special needs educator and SEAC member.
She has empowered, led, and encouraged other military families as their needs and families grow and change. Her role as a Navy ombudsman (& Air Force key spouse) at joint commands has given her insights into how EFMP differs between service branches.
Meg graduated in 2004 from Millersville University as a dual major with a Bachelor of the Arts in English and a Bachelor of Science in Speech Communication, focusing on communication theory. She then pursued graduate coursework, focusing on Special Education and English as a Second Language education. Meg began working as Partners in PROMISE’s Volunteer Coordinator in 2022.
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